Jack Reflection

Life back at home is weird after being on the island for so long. Everyone thought that we were dead and had died when the plane crashed. I miss the island, the hunting for pigs, being able to carry a spear around with me. I miss the face paint I wore. I feel naked without it. It was much more fun to be on the island, no grown ups to tell me what to do. I got in a fight at school today. A kid said something and it make me mad so I punched him a couple times. It's been difficult for me to readjust to life back home. The island had kind of become a home away from home. Sometimes I wish that I had never been rescued. My mom makes me go to therapy sessions, to talk about what happened on the island and how to act properly now that I am home. Apparently I need to work on my anger and violence too. I got suspended for punching that kid. Stupid rules. I miss the lack of rules on the island, how I could do whatever I wanted to do whenever I wanted to do it. People would listen to me too, when I told them to do something they did it. It's not like that here. I get bossed around a lot by all of the grown ups everywhere. I told my teacher to shove it a couple days ago when she told me to do something. I got sent to the office because of all the stupid rules they have at this place.

I haven't talked much to any of the others who were on the island. We tend to stay away from each other, and I tend to stay away from everybody. After school is over I just sit in my room all alone. I rarely talk to anyone these days, and if I do it's because someone made me angry. I'm in detention now, with nothing to do. I wonder how the others are dealing with being home. I wonder if they miss the island or if they'd rather be here with all of the rules and their friends and family. The police wanted to talk to me but I refused, I don't want them to know what I did while on the island, the people that were killed... I heard that Simon and Piggy's parents aren't doing so well, but I still don't feel even the slightest bit of guilt. I wonder what my life would be like had I never crashed on the island, never experienced a life without civilization. I guess I wonder about a lot of things.